listen
to your heart beat
beating
beauty-full
of love
listen
to your breath
connecting to other beings
sharing with the wind
feeeel it wispering
in your air
listen
to Mother earth
nourishing us
supporting us
giving
unconditionally.
listen
Tag: Poetry
when we retrieve the poetry of our experiences, we become gatherers. We become storytellers.
Moe Clark
finding myself
I feel like a puzzle
I haven’t yet found the pieces
but the picture so far is beautiful
I get to iron out its creases
as time goes;
over and over it unfolds
and folds back into itself
as I find myself
collecting my pieces
never finishing the puzzle.
meditation
Let go. Let go. Let go. Surrender. Your body is heavy as a rock. Sinking into Earth.
Breathe.
Breathe again. Hard.
Let it all out. Let it go. Surrender.
Open your heart. Let it heal. Breathe into its healing. Feel the expansion. The blossoming. The spread of wildflowers blazing.
Breathe in possibilities. Breathe out all that is holding you back. All your limitations.
Breathe. Hard. Love yourself. Feel the expansion in your chest. See the flowers.
See your throat. Breathe in. Know your truth, settle into your truth, let it out HARD.
Open your chest, your throat, yourSelf. Let it heal.
Focus on your third eye. Look within. Witness the beautiful, beautiful jungle inside. It is you. Unfolding with life. Slow. Peaceful. Loving-blossoming.
Feel the breeze against the side of your face. The tingling. Sensation, bringing you deeper, further. See with your mind’s eye. The jungle is there.
The breeze. Bringing you back to the healing. Deeper, further. Feel it piercing through you. Feel every single cell inside and through. Healing. Blooming.
See. See with the omniscient eye inside the layers, past the layers within. The peaceful jungle. Full of slow, timeless life.
Sometimes the breathing stops. You don’t know what or where or how or whatever. But you. Know. This.
Your whole body. Tingling. Exhilarating.
Soaring. Ecstasy.
Feel everything.
Breath underneath your wings.
Surrender, surrender, deeper, deeper.
Implode.
Timelessness.
And explode in a chaos of sensations. Rush to the surface. Wiggle. Try to feel something concrete – material.
Here we are. The floor is there. Your toes are there. Ahhhh, your breath is there.
Roll to one side. Everything is loose. Jelly.
Push weakly up. Are you up? Woah. The world is spinning, even with eyes closed. You want to go back – the jungle, the eye, the tingling, the soaring. It all flashes before you.
You sit. Open. Giving, receiving, existing. Being.
Gratitude, gratitude, gratitude. You bow to the divinity. Inside, outside – it doesn’t matter. Being.
it’s Flow, obviously
Hello darlings,
So much has happened since I last spoke. I spent two weeks visiting my brother and sister; I started conducting workshops for my community development course; I started teaching art classes to elementary school kids; I kept up teaching yoga, practicing yoga, swimming, painting, reading and writing.
All the while chaos was unfolding around me. I was caught in a riff between two people that I love immensely. Both sides were wrong. Both sides were right. I learned about the damages of near-sightedness, of being unyielding, and of miscommunication in cross-cultural relationships. When I sympathized with one, I insulted the other. I oscillated between the two, not quite knowing where to stand, feeling increasingly confused and hurt by the circumstances. Eventually, my partner left to go back to the United-States.
I still don’t know how I feel about the whole situation. At first, I was angry at them both; profoundly confused. Some days I want to lay in bed and cry because I love him and miss him. Other days I feel excited about moving on without him. Sometimes I’m frustrated because I can’t make up my mind. I’ve come to accept the process of not knowing; of questioning. My favourite poet, Rainer Maria Rilke said in his letters:
“I beg you, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.”
This resonates with me so profoundly. It evokes deep feelings of gratitude within. Everything is exactly how it should be. Not knowing is perfectly acceptable – sometimes my perfectionist self tries to get in the way and control things… I see it clearly now when I write to you.
Meanwhile, I’ve been talking back and forth with my friend Brett, who owns the farm I will be managing with (and sometimes for) him this summer. Seeding calculations, production plans, garden plans, greenhouse schedules, convincing people to buy what we call CSA shares (which consist of weekly vegetable baskets – hey if you’re in Ottawa and you’re interested go to https://www.cadencefarm.ca/), amongst very many exciting farm preparation things. Most of our help with labour will come from youth groups that want to learn about growing food sustainably. I am thrilled to not only be a farmer, but also an educator.
I’m also painting a lot more. I am refining my skills, and I find myself less and less frustrated by the process and more and more in a state of flow. Which brings to mind a poem I wrote last summer.
it’s flow, obviously
tesselate
move
stand up straight
groove
there’s no time to wait
soothe
the wounds
from the past
these things always pass
yet we quiver at the thought of separating from the mass
we shiver in anticipation knowing how fast
yet simultaneously slow transformation has
changed us
deceivingly betrayed us
intuitively guided us
to flow
flow
flow.
Now, this makes me think of something Eckhart Tolle said in one of his talks. He was talking about how we’re always waiting. Waiting for lunchtime to come around, waiting for spring to come, waiting for someone to speak first, waiting to quit our jobs and start the next exciting thing. Waiting. Waiting. He says when we start cultivating awareness. I want to emphasize that. When we start cultivating awareness, we start being present. We start being here, Now. With whatever we are doing. We stop waiting.
And yes, blah blah blah, you could start contesting that with thinking “well what about decisions that I need to make? and choosing a ‘career path’? and planning a vacation?” Those are all legitimate concerns, truly. And maybe your life requires you to think in that way. But that might also be the reason that the human race is stressed out, anxious and unfulfilled. Which brings me to something touched upon by Osho. He talks about spontaneity and recognizing the flow within. If a decision doesn’t come to us spontaneously, from that unknown place within ourselves, then we are trying to control. We are lying to ourselves and fooling ourselves, in a very subtle, but profound way. Because then we are pretending that we know better than the flow does.
I have certainly been catching myself trying to control things and people and circumstances. Know that I am only sharing my thought processes and understanding of things with the purest intentions. I just want to learn through sharing, and I encourage you to do the same. I am always open to receiving your thoughts and ideas. I most likely will answer, though sometimes I feel like it’s unnecessary for reasons that depend on the immediate circumstances.
I love you.
Namaste,
Bee
Intentions
It is a beautiful morning to be alive.
I write down goals and intentions every day before starting on anything else. This morning, it came in the form of a poem. Here it is.
Intention
I am spontaneous
I am courageous
I take back my power
Earth, I flow with Her
I am healthy and strong
I admit that i’m wrong
or maybe I’m right?
whatever it is, I won’t fight
I express myself
I accept your self
I practice
I know my purpose
taking risks
I follow my path
knowing I haven’t missed
any of the math
I embrace my uniqueness
I command creative fearlessness
off in the Cosmos, I send
THIS, I intend.
raw
I just wrote this poem.
why do I long for that look in your eyes?
to feel you
to hear you sing the way you do?
why is it so hard sometimes?
to leave you
when I know I need to
simultaneously
why do I revel at the clear blue skies?
for infinite possibilities
daisies and commonalities
seriously
I am a complex array of intertwined emotions unravelling and blossoming and contradicting within a slowly expiring blaze of vibrations.
Tips from my favourite poet…
I beg you, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.Rainer Maria Rilke
Reinvention by Nikita Gill
Reinvent yourself.
Over and over again.
Plant new wildflowers
into your spirit.
Set a wildfire inside yourself
and then regrow.
Take the wildest thing about you
and nurture it till it blossoms.
Tend to the sea that resides
inside your heart
and listen to it’s storms
wash you anew.
How else will you let go
of everything
that causes
such terrible harm.
If you are still
living inside the old you,
the person
who was so damaged by it all?
by Bee
Silence by The Obsidian Kat
Silence-
the bones on which
to hang my words,
my early morning treat.
The morning sun-
the kiln of inspiration,
the fuel to fire
my imagination’s artist hand,
painting day’s future perfect.
I bathe in it, the silence
and the sun-dress in it.
The grey cat regards me
with his yellow eyes
and nods approval.
Carefully, I unravel the silence
like strand of embroidery floss,
and make colourful patches on my dancing skirt.
I wrap a bit around my arrows called Intent and Will,
marking them as my own.
With whoops of joy
I loose them on my day.
